Blogging on my Diary...

I seriously think that I'm turning mad nowadays. I've started blogging in my diary (of sorts)... Does that even make sense? Anyway, here are 2 entries I started writing on 27 Sept while in my bunk alone, questioning my existence as usual.

"I feel so incredibly lonely sometimes... I think I'm turning reclusive. I can't believe I still find it so hard to join others in conversation. And keep myself interested. My dept prob just thinks that I'm a cranky moody bastard who's always out to get them. I admit I do seem obsessive sometimes esp when something needs to get done. But I also care a lot about fairness. It's not fair when someone gets chosen to do so many many things but others are not. Why? Because they've been here so much longer and can afford to siam. I don't understand this mentality. And it's apparently only me. Think I'll be stuck working even when everyone else has stopped. And that's usually the case here... Sigh. I'm so dumb."

(10.52pm on 27 Sept 2005)

"My department is so incredibly varied that I'm not sure whether I can tahan all of them anymore. For one, there's this guy..."

(1.22am on 27 Sept 2005)

And I shall leave it at that. I do not want to be found accused of slander so use your imagination guys... :P