Pissed Off...

Today, I had a really bad day. Walking around camp. Sending documents. Rewriting stupid documents which I kept writing wrongly. Very tiring. And on top of that, I was fasting. So I was unabashedly looking for some sympathy when I went to the food court to get some food to break fast with my family. An innocent act, fuckingly misconstrued by some 4 bitches at the stupid shop I was buying from. Idiots.

Encounters: Me being totally pissed off... Bitches...

I was standing in front of the stall, when I suddenly remembered that my sis had asked me to msg her back to ask her what she wanted. So I did. And soon after, a few other smses from some friends arrived in my LOL already full inbox. Beep Beep. And I was still looking at the menu to choose what to buy. Deliberation. Apparently that got the shopowners (2 irritating aunties) and their 2 daughters (bitches!!!) irritated. At what I'm not sure. But out of the corner of my ears I could hear what they were saying about me... It went something like this, loosely translated from Malay: "Eh... Do you see that boy (in a very derogatory tone) over there? Using his phone to msg his girlfriend (and I don't even have one, I was msging my sis). So embarassing. And he's going to eat in the public. Doesn't he know the meaning of shame? He's shaming and embarassing the whole Malay community. Disgracing all of us Malays. And doesn't he know how to make up his mind quickly?"

Fuck them. My tummy was rumbling and I was already damn tired. I didn't have to take any of these fucking judgements done out of what?... idleness perhaps. Talking behind others' backs. It's not my fucking fault that you don't have any customers right? Idiots. And I am fasting... Stupid people. And when I went to the counter to order fries (I was too pissed off to order a spring chicken). The stupid auntie asked me: "Eating here?" That was the final straw. And the tone she used... it was so disappointing and hurt me deeply. She said it with malice. As if she hated me or something. And I don't even know who she was. Crap. I asked them (as nicely as I could) to pack my fries and I left as quickly as I could. I was so pissed off. Tired and pissed off. Not a good combo.

I can't believe this. How can some people be so horrible towards their own race? Look down so lowly on their own people? And I bet the two aunties' daughters have not even seen the interior of a junior college or a university!!! Pissed me off. I'm sorry if this offends anyone but I had to degrade the two bitches (daughters) somehow. If not... I simply cannot take it. Perhaps, it was because they noticed I was a teenager. Perhaps they had made the conclusion that since they saw me standing and deliberating, I was thinking of eating there being as immature as I am. Immature. Immature. Immature. And perhaps, they equated the following equation: 1 teenager eating in public=all teenagers eat in public... thus =a disgrace to society. Fuck them. I'm still so pissed off.

In conclusion, I'm never gonna go there ever again. No way am I going to patronize the stall of people who are so narrow-minded, cynical and hypocrites... Just because I am a Malay teenager does not mean I am not educated nor does it mean that I don't know the meaning of fasting. Fuck them. Worst experience of my life. Ever.

Sensitized

Sorry for the slightly long absence... Been bloody busy at my unit. Have to juggle 2 roles until 1 guy comes back from his course at STC next week to take over the role of CQ 2 IC... Haiz. In the meantime, I love where I am and what I'm doing. I think I'm damn lucky to have gotten posted here. Seriously. It's close to my home. (Even though I have to stay in. Haiz...) The working hours are fairly regular (we finish usually at about 5-5.30pm). And finally. The people here are a fun bunch to work with. Never too serious to spoil the overall jovial mood in the office.

I realize that I have become rather 'sensitized' since being posted here. I have to learn to know what people around me want before they even mention it. As in. Anticipation. And you have to be deft enough not to offend anyone with your words or actions. I have yet to master the skill of getting close to the most important people in the department though I'm slowly learning... :P

Encounters: The 2 elderly males in green...
Anyway... Talking about being sensitized... I was at this food court near my house that just opened. I was eating. What it was is not important. What was more important was that I saw two elderly males sweeping and mopping the floor and wiping the food on the table and clearing the dishes. Here, we call them 'apeks'. They were in green and it kinda hit my heart where it pained most. This image of the elderly serving the young was incongruous to say the least. It saddened me thoroughly. I must admit. Before this, I always chose to ignore these images... my self-imposed apathy but now... haiz... I guess your environment can really change your life's perceptions and priorities. I'm not advocating anything or condoning anyone but the number of the elderly still in the work force beyond their retirement age is kinda alarming. And most of the time, they are made to do the menial jobs that youngsters like us refuse to do. Sigh. I think I shall do more housework from tomorrow onwards.

Reconnaissance

After spending a week with the guys & gal in my new unit (3rd Sig Bn HQ), I think they are a great bunch of people to spend my next 2 years with. Fun to talk to and never too serious. And dirty jokes aplenty (albeit in Malay). Now a bit busy because of something important happening but the fact that we're doing NDP next year has got me all excited. No one is. But I am. For it will be my very first NDP in my whole life. One in which I'll actually be in the bloody stadium. Cool! Anyways, here's the names I've learnt to know and have become friends with... [Oh yeah! Don, from STC's with me here so at least when I know I'll always have someone fun to talk to when everyone else is busy!]

Encounters: One of a kind

Siti
Halim
Fairuz
Hakeem
Shahroum
Farizwan
Kok Boon
Aaron
Shi Hao
Erwin
Andrew
2 Sirs (QM & RQ)

Went shopping yesterday with my family (including my bloody irritating bro) for Hari Raya clothes. I splurged about $60 for my baju kurung... the most expensive one I have bought so far. Doesn't matter. It looks great. At least in my opinion. Then my bloody bro had to get the same one. Crap. Saw a lot of cute girls in the store. As in really a lot. The storegirls were kinda sweet and cute. They were so helpful even though they were busy. And those who were shopping were mostly with their friends. And while in the group, they kept moving as a group so I thought it was kinda cute as well. Well. Me and my thoughts. It's just that. My thoughts.

Rendezvous at Dhoby Ghaut

Yay! The old guys (stc ppl) are meeting up at Dhoby Ghaut MRT for LAN I think... I'm not very sure... But it will be nice after a brief respite of about 3 days. :) Hope it will be lots of fun. Reminder to self: Bring camera!!

Was cooped up at home because was expecting a recall to camp. It didn't happen. Yay! But managed to do a lot of reading. Hey wait... this has nothing to do with meeting ppl. Don't worry. Will edit this post once I get home from the outing. :) Hope to see most of everyone there! Anyway, thought I should post a pic of my syndicate here... Still miss you all!!!

Just finished packing my bloody duffel bag to get ready for stay-in in camp from tomorrow onwards. Crap. But actually I don't mind. It's just the hassle of it all. The need to bring everything that there is in your room so you won't feel that you miss home. Even a bloody small thing like an alarm clock can send shivers down your spine. If you don't bring it that is...

Anyway, the rendezvous this afternoon was fun. CS for like 2 hours ++ I was killed 1,000,000++ Hehe... I still suck at this game. :) Realized how much I miss the guys when we started screaming blasphemies during the game. ( _________ ) Please use your own imagination. It was fun! Anyway, we started talking about new units like they were newly discovered countries. Complete with evil villains out to get you and chop off your head with glee. And the mandatory moments of solitude. Here's the list of ppl who went:

Encounters: The CS gang of 03102004

BingShun
Tun Kai
Wen Qing
Jonathan
Jason
Weijian
Jin Wei
Me

Then went to Plaza Singapura to accompany some of them to get some essential accessories for stay-in. Sighz. Everyone is staying in. I don't know whether I like the idea or not. Crap. I think that's the only word I can think of whenever i'm stumped. Crap. And now I cannot blog daily anymore. Crap.

Eye Openers

I must admit. I am still sore from sorrow and missing people. People I've been with for what 4 months? I miss them so much. So much. That I cried on the way home. So malu. Weird sight it must have been. Green with tears. Crap.

My new unit has some very interesting people. Seriously. Lemme see. A lot of mats. A lot. And they speak Malay seriously a lot. It's kinda unnerving to me. Like a whole new world. I shall try and list down those I know (or at least remember). QM and RQ are quite nice people - I sort of talked to them today...

Encounters: The Hands of the Army

Fairuz
Hakeem
Halim
Siti
Erwin
Khairil

That's all I remember. Hopefully things will be much better soon once I know them after some time.